reprieve

yesterday when i returned 

from errands, 

wendy was up 

curious about the stuff i'd dragged into the house.

groceries, flea market cloth and a blender  

she drank and smelled the dry food 

(that was sitting there, just in case).

i placed some tuna on the floor.

she sniffed and sniffed, and then ate! 

more than a taste.

so i went to town

bought yucky smelling fancy gooey dog food

which she ate. not much, 

but plenty for one who has fasted so long.

this morning she 

asked to eat again.

and yesterday she barked and wagged her tail lots,

so it seems we are in a reprieve

for a bit.

me, i am learning patience, acceptance. 

more centering

i ate supper of potato salad in my car, 

watching and listening to the wind and the water on lake flower, 

in saranac lake.

and the sun shone out

in reminder

 i have a new splint to wear for four weeks. 

 it's hard to feel too sorry for yourself 

when these mountains are the constant backdrop here.

i love this town, 

it's quieter and secret compared to bawdy lake placid, 

where my doctor practices.

as i struggle

with acceptance and patience

i remember learning patience before.

waiting

is it always so damned hard?

good news:

i can teach this summer, and in all likelihood

no surgery.